Scorching silent darkness
nothing to be heard
no-body
Not even a wandering dream
or a flirting emotional maze
My thoughts are quiet
thudding sound of heartbeats
noise of respiration
Is all that I can hear
in shades of recluse
A shallow dive in the past
An appalled distress
Blocking a poetic phase
reconciling all the burnt anecdotes
melting my extant desires
there’s a smoke in me
Oh I touched myself in a long time
life can’t be any more crystal
in shades of recluse!
I looked through the pores of city lights
Found none but mystery
Some voices said, some eyes unheard
and faces gloom to treachery
I vexed few lines of charcoal
Pushed them harsh
achieve no grace
Few travel bugs and enthusiasts
Came with songs of reckless praise
to oblique me and bring me sultry
Some voices said, some eyes unheard
and faces gloom to treachery
Clout of light is concubine of dark
Where dark is a patient riddle
riddles are born on gutters of street
beneath stripped flesh of reality
I longed for a friend in empty crowds
Truthful and viscous essentially
Could only find frames without a shadow
Endangered heart with mucous of banality
Some voices said some eyes unheard
And ‘their’ faces gloom to treachery
That silence in her
Pushed a clot of blood in me
Knocking the inner voices
Palpable only to the contrite self.
Rubbing the dryness in her eyes
A solemn me argued
I shall be the shore to your flow
Damp and precise
Till the limit of being timeless
And beyond
When wicked emotions
brushes the pulp of my heart
Taking the taste of
that sickening saline flavour
poison
and the name chants despondency
Fickling the vicious saint in me
sodomizing the end, to be anxious of
the momentarily struggle, that seems
forever
Licking the thickened walls of my eardrums
Sweltering the sheet of my nerves
Beholding to heel myself penultimate
perhaps on a famous fantasy called
LOVE
I’ve seen the world
Done it all
Had my cake now
Diamonds, brilliant
And Bel Air now
Hot summer nights, mid July
When you and I were forever wild
The crazy days, city lights
The way you’d play with me like a child
Will you still love me
When I’m no longer young and beautiful?
Will you still love me
When I got nothing but my aching soul?
I know you will, I know you will
I know that you will
Will you still love me when I’m no longer beautiful?
P.S. Excerpts from a Lana Del Rey’s song
What hails me to continue?
Out of sync
To make hays of dreams in the latent path
Hurled feelings just to come out of some jinx
Traversing to unknown and then back to warren
This polite wind from the mountains temp
And frisking of my heart as that of a lynx
A pact of my soul with unheard vent
The dancing leaves on tunes of the breeze
Trooping on my conceivable session
Making merry to debauch the possession
Brokeback Mountains with their crown of pride
Those chattering rivers and their human link
Mystic scent of the uncanny hope
Warming my soul, my blood and my whole being
This roaming heart blessed with pure feelings
Thrusting to be felt by another pure one
Shielding it from the world until it happens
And happens with the point of no return
All of this comes to me in thresh of a wink
And it all hails me to continue,
Out of sync.
Dil mein koi sui si chubhi aaj, meri aankh bhar aayi hain,
Karwat lekar dekha maine, meri dost sirf tanhai hain……….
Arzoo hoti nahi muqammal, meri iss jahan mein,
Der se hi sahi ye baat, mujhe aaj samjh mein aayi hain
Karwat lekar dekha maine, meri dost sirf tanhai hain……….
Milte gaye qaffile, har mod, dost bante gaye.
Fir kyu Aftaab hokar bhi, humne andhero mein jagah paayi hain.
Maana hummein reh-shumari ki khubiyaan nahi,
Humne to rooh-e-pak main saari umar gavai hain,
Karwat lekar dekha maine, meri dost sirf tanhai hain……….
Sooraj k saamne hum, kuch feeke pad gaye lekin,
Alfazo se apne humne bhi, kai baar aag lagai hain,
Dua-e-walida karti thi roshan taqdeer meri,
Apne hi haathon humne, wo jane kahan gumai hain.
Karwat lekar dekha maine, meri dost sirf tanhai hain
‘I‘ll love you, dear, I’ll love you
Till China and Africa meet,
And the river jumps over the mountain
And the salmon sing in the street,
‘I’ll love you till the ocean
Is folded and hung up to dry
And the seven stars go squawking
Like geese about the sky.
‘The years shall run like rabbits,
For in my arms I hold
The Flower of the Ages,
And the first love of the world.’
But all the clocks in the city
Began to whirr and chime:
‘O let not Time deceive you,
You cannot conquer Time.
‘In the burrows of the Nightmare
Where Justice naked is,
Time watches from the shadow
And coughs when you would kiss
Every time I close my eyes
It’s like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I’m scared that you
Won’t be waiting on the other side
Every time I close my eyes
It’s like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
But there’s no you,
Except in my dreams tonight
There’s no relief,
I see you in my sleep
And everybody’s rushing me,
But I can feel you touching me
There’s no release,
I feel you in my dreams
Telling me I’m fine
P.S. excerpts from Lana del rey’s ‘darkparadise’
I get drown in me
In the lusty breeze of sea
in dilemma of an untamed mind
whenever I seek precision
In bewilderment of my identity
lynching in the crises of life
heading nowhere but in oblivion
I get drown in me
In thrust of this unkempt world
In its lies and squabble
Recluse and babble
when people suck me dry
and I hold nothing to offer
then I lay spent under the night sky
to let the stars induce in torrential
I get drown in me
when I witness the hex of a setting sun
its yellow, its orange, its red
swallowing my hideous dark demons
and spitting out a soul unchurned
I get drown in me
when I remember those eyes
those brown celestial ones
that once confessed love, pure and proper
but mugged me and left undone
I get drown in me
When I decide to rush
to the cosmos, in its lacuna
searching a portal that
embrace me with my frothy matter
bestowing some rustic peace
somewhere I really belong!
